Obsessive Compulsive Existence
Obsessing daily, Compulsions hourly, Disorder constantly
I love lights, especially the pretty Christmas and fairy lights. There is something about them that is so calming, maybe it's the cute twinkling, or maybe the soft glow they give off in a pitch black space. I remember in school there being a sensory room for especially anxious students (I only found out about … Continue reading Lights for Therapy
Today I had a bit of an emotional episode, mostly because I can't get any irrational thoughts out of my head! The worst thing is, is that I know they are irrational. Yet somehow my mind doesn't want to know and is quite happy feeding my brain the crappiest of irrational ideas. For example - … Continue reading This irrational thing has gone too far!
So, I have a brain scan coming up in two months time and it is safe to say that I am absolutely bricking it. This is for many reasons, the first is that I am scared of the actual process, I hate to feel locked into places and I just don't know what to expect. … Continue reading Brain scan! 🧠
Hello everyone! As I said in the little introduction video (bare with me, it's my first video!) I had a miscarriage in May '17. Rob and I weren't planning, we hadn't even been together a year. But, it happened. I fell pregnant. I remember feeling it, just knowing that I was carrying a baby. Like … Continue reading Miscarriage – It was not your fault
For the first time in my life, I played the game Yahtzee with my partner. Let me tell you that I am obsessed with it! I have never been so calm playing a game, and in my head it makes so much sense... This is a game of matching and counting, where you want all … Continue reading Yahtzee, OCD-the game
Whilst writing the posts for this blog, I have realised something... I must be so difficult to live with. What with the obsessions, compulsions, attacks, stress, and anxiety I constantly radiate, how does my partner feel about it all? Is living with someone who has OCD a challenge? Well, of course I cannot answer these questions … Continue reading Being the Partner of Someone with OCD
Today I had a beautiful day with my amazing family, shopping for Christmas decorations. We bought lights, tinsel, baubles, the lot! It was the best day in a long time, much needed by all of us. What I didn't expect was to cry most of the drive home. My boyfriend was sat in the passenger … Continue reading Convincing myself that I am an animal abuser.
Okay. Short one today as it is mine and Robs 2nd anniversary ❤️ and I apologise for the lack of posts over the last few days. But back on track now hopefully. So, I am in my first year of uni and have handed in my first two assignments. They were enough to make me … Continue reading Can I actually do this!?
One thing that keeps me going through life is knowing that I will be going home to a safe space. A place where I will never be judged for crying over trivial matters, where I can run and hide from the scary world, a quiet area so I can calm down. If you don't already … Continue reading How to make the perfect safe space.
All of us think to ourselves 'am I really that bad?' some time in our lives, it's natural. Can any human say that they genuinely like being hated? We all want to be liked, and of course, for every positive there has to be a negative. There will always be someone we clash with. Be it our … Continue reading Am I really that bad?
Obsessive Compulsive Existence 