Obsessive Compulsive Existence
Obsessing daily, Compulsions hourly, Disorder constantly
2018 has been a whirlwind, some bad things have happened but I can confidently say that it has been a good year for me. Now, there are a few of people who marched right out of my life claiming to never want to see me or my family again (yet they still read this blog) … Continue reading Happy New year!
Right, I am just going to get straight into this. The other day I had a CBT meeting. All good there, on the road to recovery. It was all going well until my therapist said... A. OCD isn't actually a thing, it's just an anxiety of the brain. She doesn't believe in labels. (can i … Continue reading Habit or Compulsion? A Rant (sorry)
Finally I am over the flu! After a week of bedrest and barely being able to do anything, I am back on my feet, and today has been one heck of a stressful day. It was my face to face pip appointment! After 4 months of waiting, I finally had my assessment done today, and … Continue reading Why I am proud of myself, and a Pip rant.
When you are just a toddler, you start to learn the basics of human emotions and how they look. If you see someone sad, they may be crying, if you see someone angry they are probably frowning. If you see someone happy... They are smiling. I feel like smiling and happiness is one of the … Continue reading 😶 The problem with smiling 😶
So Thursday was an exciting day for me, I finally had my appointment for CBT. It was only the initial one just explaining what's wrong and giving permission to share anything that could be threatening to me etc. Rob came along with me and when we left the office he said something that allowed a … Continue reading 🌄 Finally! 🌅
Oh dear, either I'm going to be doing too much or not enough. Most likely the latter, and I am already obsessing over how crap I am probably going to do. Now, it is really important that I really am a part of this group task, I need the grade! Yet I am still behind … Continue reading Group work advice
So, I have a brain scan coming up in two months time and it is safe to say that I am absolutely bricking it. This is for many reasons, the first is that I am scared of the actual process, I hate to feel locked into places and I just don't know what to expect. … Continue reading Brain scan! 🧠
I remember being around 6 years old and everyone from my family to strangers on the street would tell me how beautiful my hair was. How long and blonde the locks flowed over my shoulders. Some even gave me money!! So, in my head, I believed that I looked like repunzel. A beautiful princess with … Continue reading The time I was taught to love myself
Today I had a beautiful day with my amazing family, shopping for Christmas decorations. We bought lights, tinsel, baubles, the lot! It was the best day in a long time, much needed by all of us. What I didn't expect was to cry most of the drive home. My boyfriend was sat in the passenger … Continue reading Convincing myself that I am an animal abuser.
Okay. Short one today as it is mine and Robs 2nd anniversary ❤️ and I apologise for the lack of posts over the last few days. But back on track now hopefully. So, I am in my first year of uni and have handed in my first two assignments. They were enough to make me … Continue reading Can I actually do this!?
Obsessive Compulsive Existence 