Hello everyone! As I said in the little introduction video (bare with me, it's my first video!) I had a miscarriage in May '17. Rob and I weren't planning, we hadn't even been together a year. But, it happened. I fell pregnant. I remember feeling it, just knowing that I was carrying a baby. Like … Continue reading Miscarriage – It was not your fault
Tag: OCD
Yahtzee, OCD-the game
For the first time in my life, I played the game Yahtzee with my partner. Let me tell you that I am obsessed with it! I have never been so calm playing a game, and in my head it makes so much sense... This is a game of matching and counting, where you want all … Continue reading Yahtzee, OCD-the game
Being the Partner of Someone with OCD
Whilst writing the posts for this blog, I have realised something... I must be so difficult to live with. What with the obsessions, compulsions, attacks, stress, and anxiety I constantly radiate, how does my partner feel about it all? Is living with someone who has OCD a challenge? Well, of course I cannot answer these questions … Continue reading Being the Partner of Someone with OCD
Convincing myself that I am an animal abuser.
Today I had a beautiful day with my amazing family, shopping for Christmas decorations. We bought lights, tinsel, baubles, the lot! It was the best day in a long time, much needed by all of us. What I didn't expect was to cry most of the drive home. My boyfriend was sat in the passenger … Continue reading Convincing myself that I am an animal abuser.
Can I actually do this!?
Okay. Short one today as it is mine and Robs 2nd anniversary ❤️ and I apologise for the lack of posts over the last few days. But back on track now hopefully. So, I am in my first year of uni and have handed in my first two assignments. They were enough to make me … Continue reading Can I actually do this!?
My hair, My Comfort.
So, you have probably heard of skin pickers; generally they pick at the skin around their hands and fingers, their face etc. I am a skin picker myself, always picking at my nails, cuticles and face seems to be one of my favourite pass-times, and recently the overbearing need to destroy my gums has been … Continue reading My hair, My Comfort.
Emetophobia – Story Time, My Phobia, and Some Little Tips
The 'fear of vomiting or seeing others being sick.' (https://www.anxietyuk.org.uk/anxiety-type/emetophobia/) Or should I say, 'The overwhelming discourse of feelings of dread, foreboding, and panic-inducing nervousness that comes with the thought of throwing up, and witnessing the spillage of the contents of another's stomach.' (Me) I have had Emetophobia since I was around nine years old, … Continue reading Emetophobia – Story Time, My Phobia, and Some Little Tips
Novembermas
After quite a few mental health heavy posts(I know, I know that's what this blog is all about) I think it is time for a lighter and happier post ... 'Novembermas' is something that my mum has been obsessed with for years. She made it up because she is Christmas Crazy and never comes quick enough, … Continue reading Novembermas
Fireworks
Need I say more? I have PTSD, and like many others with this awful thing, something what makes it flare up more than anything is loud bangs. I live practically outside a train-line and have gotten used to the loud noises, squeaks, and bangs that come with it, especially at night. I also live by the … Continue reading Fireworks
Ever wake up at 2am …
... and just want to go home? go home to your parents, partner, your pet? ever randomly wake up and decide your house isn't your home anymore, that the walls are all wrong, the carpet isn't yours, the sofa isn't right? I have been getting this a lot lately, especially over the past few days. … Continue reading Ever wake up at 2am …
Obsessive Compulsive Existence 